"Those we have held in our arms for a little while, we hold in our hearts forever"

Rest in love Baby Mailau Lakai Kaili Vi Tonga..

I recently lost a pure, sweet, angelic baby nephew on Christmas eve. Nothing breaks my heart more then to hear a baby has passed away. This sweet baby boy was too pure for this world, so our Heavenly Father took him back to dwell in his presence. I send my love to my cousin Rosalani, you were a very great mother..and we are all here for you. I love you so much, always keep in mind the amazing Plan of Salvation. I love you baby Mailau..you've blessed many of us with you presence here on earth. I know there are a lot of our loved ones up there embracing and caring for you..so there is no worries on how you are doing now. We love you and will be reunited soon. Ofa Lahi Atu to you Rosalani and Baby <3  

 

The BEST Christmas ever...

 

We were so close...so very close to having all eleven of us kids and the parents together for one family pic but sadly my older brother Sam Jr. was feeling under the weather, so we're just missing him..but other then taht this is a picture of my 10 brothers and sisters with our parents. Every year there is always one person missing when we want to take a family picture, whether one is out of state..sick..busy or just missing in action! lol WE WERE SO CLOSE TO HAVING EVERYONE IN A PICTURE!  lol but you know what, I know there will be plenty more times to take pictures where we're all in it. This Christmas was seriously the BEST Christmas I have ever had in all my life. This Christmas consisted of just pure joy, happiness and family. There was no need for gifts or worldly things to make us happy. This Christmas made me really appreciate all the many gifts we have but don't recognize just cause we're so used to having them..like for me, I'm thankful for my health, the health of my loved ones, my family still being here with me, and time I have to see and enjoy being with my family. Having this Christmas not focusing on material things was perfect, simply amazing! I cannot express in words how great this holiday has been to my family and I. Well just to quickly go over what my family and I did for this beautiful passed Christmas, we first since it was a very blessed day being that it was Sunday, we attended church..it was really great! the bishop ric spoke and gave really amazing talks. Then my family and I came and had a good Family Home Evening, we really expressed how appreciative we were for one another. I can tell you all now that the spirit really was there in our Family Home Evening. We then had an AMAZINGLY DELICIOUS dinner made by my Mother, she sure can hook it UP!(: lol no lie, we just hung out, talked enjoyed each others company...we then got ready and rolled 5 cars deep to the beautiful Salt Lake City Temple..I've gone to the Salt Lake City Temple many many times, but this time around had to be my all time favorite time going EVER! We walked around, took a ton of pictures..gazed at the beauty of the Temple, and lights..just had a great time. We all drove back home and our Aunt Helen also known as the photographer took a lot more pictures of us and I mean A LOT more hahaha it was great we ate dessert and talked and enjoyed each others company even more! lol haha There is never a dull moment with my family! lol. Then before we knew it, it was 1:00am so we knew we had to go back to reality and sleep for work..just basically get back to our daily routines :( So everyone started heading home..My parents and my little sister Finau and I took my older sister Melini and her lovely family home in Tooele. Drove back home and the siblings of mine that still stay in this house were all still up and so we ALL just stayed up talking about everything, and didn't sleep until 4 almost 5 in the morning haha!. 

But all in all this Christmas was the best I've ever had!. You know, throughout everything that went on that entire day, I remember stepping back and observing my family laughing, eating, talking, and just feeling extreme happiness, I thought to myself.. "I wonder if this is how it'll be in Heaven, when we're all together" because the feeling I felt being with my family, was heavenly. I know that I could not have felt that without the Spirit dwelling with us. Im so grateful for everything the Lord has blessed my family and I with. This Christmas was a very blessed one. I really hope we'll have many more with the same feeling. What a perfect way to end this year of 2011. I love my family and everything and everyone I'm blessed with. 

*Families Are FOREVER <3

Before It's To Late..

Alicia Keys : Tell You Something

     So today, I found out that two Tongan young guys passed away today in a car accident. Do I know them? no, have I ever met them? no. I know this for a FACT* that, it doesnt matter if your Tongan, Samoan, Fijian, or Hawaiian..It hurts us all when we hear that a Poly has passed away. So hearing this, made me feel sorrow for the family of these two young men. This really made me realize who and what I have. It makes me a little upset with myself, because it takes people to pass away for me to realize what I have..and I need to change that because I wont ever know when I might lose someone really close to me.
       This song is one of my all time favorites. It explains everything, that I am feeling, and how I feel about people who I love, passing on. This song also reminds me to appreciate who and what I have, because I do not want to wait until its too late to tell someone how much I love them. So enjoy this song, and I got the lyrics to go as well because they are deep and have a GREAT meaning.

Much love as well to the families of these two young men..stay strong. Ofa Atu* <3 <3

My top TEN turn off's about a guy..

  Okay so here are my top ten turn off's about a guy. I hope ten isn't that much, because if it is, then maybe that explains why I'm single hahaha. These are MY own personal turn off's, and MY opinions..so don't take any of these personal, I'm not judging ANYONE(:

 1: Cheaters. I'm sure all male and females have this as one of their main turn off's and its one of mine as well. I have a really hard time trusting guys..I don't know why, I just do. I honestly think that this is the main reason why I do NOT like being in a relationship. I don't trust many people and I protect myself, especially when it comes to loving someone really special. I keep myself from getting hurt. I don't know how I'd  handle being in a situation, where my (future) husband had cheated on me. I cant even imagine.

 

2: Lazy. This is a NO GO, no way! I cannot stand lazy guys haha I need a strong hardworking man, who will provide for our family. Being lazy is not going to pass with me, especially because I'd want to be up and working as well, and I would NOT want him to be sitting at home...hahaha! NO! NO! NO!. Lazy men, TURN OFF!(: hahaha..

3: Dirty Mouth. TURN OFF! There are a BILLION words in the English language, to use when you are mad, upset, sad..whatever! that do not involve foul language. It is a EXTREME turn off when all you hear from a guy is "$@%! $$@$%!&*# @&#*#" NO! turn off! this is not only disrespectful but it also shows who you really are and how your parents raised you. hahaha Not cute at all.

 

4: Momma's Boys.  Okay, this one is half and half..I don't like it, but then I do. I do because their mother is the one who brought him into this corrupted world hahaha and also because the way he is with his mom, really shows how he'll be with you. BUT! hahaha there's a limit. If he was spoiled by his mother basically throughout his whole LIFE! no! that is a no go! lol because I feel he'll always compare everything you do, to his mother. Cooking, cleaning, nurturing and all that. I don't like being compared to anyone, especially to someone he loves just a little bit more then ME! haha (: so this one's a half and half. I kind of like it, but then I kind of...don't haha.

 

5: Body Odor/ Bad Hygiene. Men who smell like cologne, aww melts my heart LOL, especially when it's a really good smelling cologne. I LOVE men who smell gooooooood. But this one is not about smelling good. Its ODOR and BAD HYGIENE!..I remember in highschool, the football team had some really good looking guys on the team, but smelling their odor after practice..made me cringe. I understand we all smell after working out, and that's fine! I'm just saying, its a big turn off if he had that odor all the time. Also if he doesn't care to take showers and all that good stuff hahaha. not cool! lol hahaha turn off.

 

6: Drugs or Alcohol. I have zero tolerance for guys who smoke or drink. I've dated some guys who did, and I tell you now..this is the EXACT reason why we're not together now. I'm not judging anyone. I think it's really unattractive seeing guys do so. Its an extreme turn off for me. I do not like it at all.

 

7: Conceited. I like handsome guys, nothings wrong with that. But if he's cuter then me?..then that's where the problem kicks in hahaha..nope! I'm not conceited, I just think the girl should always be cuter then their husband hahahaha...hmmm (maybe I should rethink this one) hahaha. But its a BIG turn off when he's into himself too much, its not attractive at all..leave all that for the lady. (: hahaha.

8: Immature. Even though this picture makes me LAUGH OUT LOUD!!! hahahahahaha..it's a big turn off to me, when guys are immature. There's a difference with being a funny guy, but when all he does is pull jokes and pranks. That's when it's a turn off. 

 

9: Bad Kisser.   I admit, I've had my fair share of kissing..LOL, and the majority of them were not good. (This is kind of awkward that I'm sharing this, but IT'S MY BLOG!) hahaha. This is one of my turn off's because.........yeah.........it just is lol hahaha. Kissing is very crucial in a relationship, and if he's not good...then, yeah.......it just sucks if he's sucks lol hahaha. Turn off.

 10: Slob.  I have no problem picking up after children, or toddlers..BUT! if its a full grown person, that's where I'll have a PROBLEM. I'm nobody's mother, and this is why being a slob is a turn off to me. I will not clean up after him, maybe I will here and there but if his room looks like the picture above, he better recognize who I am. I'd rather be his girlfriend or wife, then to be his maid or mother!..NOPE! three words for slobs, *Ain't Gonna Happen. hahaha turn off.

So here they are! My top ten turn offs..lol over all I still love boys!! hahahahaha.. I'm just stating what I don't like, and what my turn offs are(: hahaha..

*Thankful..

*This month of November is the month of being thankful for all you have. I recently wrote on my Facebook status that all I was thankful for was the food my family and I were going to eat on Thanksgiving..a lot of people thought that was funny, and some thought I was self fish..hahaha well first of all I was just joking around, I mean I was very thankful for my mothers cooking, but to admit, I have TOO many things I am extremely grateful for, that would not fit on my Facebook status. So I want to list all the many things I am grateful and thankful for on MY AWESOME BLOG!(:


1. Being a member of the Church of Jesus Chris of Latter Day Saints
 2. Parents
 3. Ten siblings
 4. Brothers in law and Nieces and Nephews
 5. Education
 6. My many flaws..lol
 7.Everything I am, and everything I'm not
 8. MISSIONARY WORK
 9. TEMPLE MARRIAGE
10. FOOD!!! lol
11. Lip gloss
12. Earrings hahaha (im obsessed!)
13. Journals
14. Time
15. BOYS! (of course) haha..
16. Health
17. Being an American Tongan!
18. My culture
19. All my mistakes
20. My friends
21. Chocolate covered raisins(: mmm..
22. Music
23. Jewelry
24. Straighteners and curling irons! hehe..
25. LIFE itself! <3


These are my top 25!(: hahaha I'm extremely thankful for these and MUCH! MUCH! MORE! I just can't think of the rest! Oh! and I know it's already December, but I had no time to blog the last few weeks left of November! lol *Better late then never though!..hahaha

*Times I Cherish...

Okay, so this picture above makes me first laugh, because it is a picture of the back of my parents heads hahaha..and yes I'm in the back seat haha. But besides those two random facts about this picture, it also shows you what I see every other Thursdays!. The happy Thursdays were my Dad likes to take my mom and I out to eat, or just go cruising around this lovely state of Utah..or in other words, the Thursdays my dad gets paid and is off..lol (: I'm in a family of 10 other siblings, but these Thursdays, I feel is my quality time with my mom and dad. We go out to eat and talk about anything and everything. We basically catch up on anything that's new or coming up. I really really REALLY enjoy every second of every minute I spend with my parents, I feel really blessed and lucky to have these "quality alone times" with my parents. It lets me know that even though there are a lot of other family members in my BIG family, my parents still have time for me.

 My parents are very important to me, and it's times like these that I cherish the most because its time for just my parents and I. At times I think I'm a spoiled brat because I get these days with my parents, but to be honest I reassure myself that we're not on this earth permanently so take as much chances you'll get to spend with your parents and cherish them with all your heart. I'm really close and open with my parents about everything, and sometimes I need to calm down on that just a tad lol but its mainly because of the fact that they are really understanding and loving. My parents are the perfect examples of guiding and helping their children. They are the best people I know!..haha (aren't all of our parents! lol). I know it may seem weird or strange to others but I love hanging out with my parents, ever since I was younger and still to this day and I'm 18(: haha their the coolest!!.

Mom, Dad..I thank you two for not only raising me to be who I am now, but also for guiding me throughout my entire life. Always know that I've needed you two since I was born, and I still need you two to this day, and always will. Never think that their is a time I feel I wont need you two. You two are my heart and life. I love you two with all of my heart and hope there will be many more *Happy Thursdays to come..Now it's you two taking me around, but don't you two worry..it will soon be me dragging you two along, in the back seats hahaha. I love you two, you guys will always be my heroes. *Ofa Lahi Atu Mom and Dad
  xoxo

I must admit, being an Aunt is the best job ever!...

  

I have the privillege of being an Aunt to five extremely beautiful children. I have two adorable nieces, and three handsome nephews, and I can tell you now..they each play a big role in my life, yes I said it lol these little people haha have a HUGE positive affect on my life. When im faced with temptation, each and every little face of theirs pops into my head reminding me to do whats right. These children are my heart, I cannot express how much love I have for each and every single one of them. I sometimes think how much love I'll have for my own kids, because of the way I love these little ones lol. I take these kids as a blessing in my life, yes I'm only an Aunt, but they have really and truly blessed my life, I mean WHO WOULDA THOUGHT that a 5 yr old, 4 yr old, 3 yr old, a 2 yr old and a 2 month old child would make me who I am today. I personally feel that being an Aunt is a very important role(: haha I mean we have to be there when their parents dont give them enough candy, or when they get older and their mom and dad wont buy them the shoes that are in style hahaha..its a crucial role we play! haha. I love these kids with all my heart and I really do have to thank their parents for bringing them into this world...buuuuut I dont really want to right now haha lol

 I love my beautiful nieces *Finehika & Helen...and my extremely handsome nephews * Lopeti, Kotoni, and Mana'ia.. you kids really do make my life more exciting and enjoyable, I love you kids with all of my heart..Ofa Lahi Atu xoxo(: